So I'm still pretty crippled about virus stuff I'm just not able to focus on drawing or anything in particular. If that bothers you I don't know what to say. Best I can do is that I sit and do my best to ignore the news but it's really hard. I'm more or less terrified of either getting this virus or having to deal with a loss in the family from it... OR the medical bills that'll come.

Also thinking about if the virus gets to our TERRIBLE leadership, I'm still not sure if the poetic justice will be worth the chaos.

Please if you have a means of making me less insane and more relaxed I'll take it. In the mean while I don't have it in me to force out art for money... I still need the money obviously but I can't commit to anything out of fear...

Just thanks for reading but after the last two journals it feels like people aren't reading these... Which if you're just as terrified I'm sorry too. This is awful and I guess it's like feeling the force... thousands of voices screaming and suddenly silenced. It's just unnerving. Don't read my journals if my own anxiety triggers yours... though you read this far down I'm sorry if it did do such things.