I really don't mind people giving me negative feedback. Like if there is something wrong with my art, I'll be hurt but I'm doing my best to get stronger from it. Course, I love the praise but when I can sense my work getting stale or something is off, then I'd like to know what the problem is.

It's certainly harder for some people to feel like they can give me feedback and what tends to happen is that I'll hear it but still not take it seriously. Most of my work and technique is all self taught and hard to stop doing the bad techniques. Like I don't reverse my images back and forth, I still allow tangents and muddy silhouettes, and don't really use references when I should use them.

There are certain comments that get me like, "you're drawing a lot of THIS and not a lot of what I want to see" and yeah I get that part. It comes off of more of a "I'll only like your work if you draw my kink" and that feels a disingenuous. When I jump into do a different subject matter it feels weird to have those pics sort of SINK like stones because I gathered a following of people who loved the ONE thing I was doing and don't get the new thing I was doing. I guess, I'm always looking for advice and critique on the CURRENT picture I drew, regardless of subject matter.

For a lot of people I understand it, but then I just look at my art and how I've never really been a great artist. I've always been just a meandering artist with a very amateur style. It's never going to be amazing and I spend a lot of time and energy working on things that don't get me instant adoration and attention and it just makes me feel like giving up... course I can't give up and I really won't give up, but there are certainly things that I've given up on more often then completing them. The time I spend getting the things done which are things that I think will blow people away, just end up getting me back in the same circle of mediocrity that I've always been in.

I do thank people for being around and just lookin... I can't always tell why you like my stuff, and you can certainly say why, but in the end it's still not ... right. It's still all just my own hold ups getting to me. Thanks for readin.