Hi Newgrounds... hows it going?

Think it's best to admit that I'm sort of not feeling good about posting art in general but most of my art slowness is all thanks to my fears about FA ruining my existence online. Killing me and my drive for art with their censorship. I don't have much to be inspired with because I can't make connections with people. I've always been pretty distant and afraid to talk to people, so feeling like saying "hello" to someone would get me blocked and banned is enough to keep me closed away from the internet.

Newgrounds could be a community that i know I can talk to but it also feels like they have their own party going on in the background and I can't really find a place to stand or a conversation that I can get into. You guys are doing great and riding the high of these new games and stuff... but I really don't know if I fit in... every now and then there are still comments and people stopping by my art to either down vote it harshly or leave some weird comment making me feel unwelcome... not all of you can control that but it still feels like my hand being slapped away from the cookie jar.

The other thing getting me down is just trying to deal with my mental stress... it's not even things that I can explain, but I do feel like I need to try and go back to the real world at some point and THAT experience horrifies me greatly. I'm working on my health the best I can, but then I get caught up in just feeling like not doing anything and mopeing for days... I had an excuse where the Vaccine made me fatigued for a few days, keeping me closed up and away from people. I really don't have much to add when it comes to being a good leader or a good role model... but I need to at least feel like I'm capable of doing that.

It feels like everyone is tired of the internet and it's BS for the most part. Noone feels like they can be themselves anymore and there are too many people just openly attacking people over petty problems.

What WILL happen I can say for SubStar is there will be a mix of Sonic and other Video Game characters that I have interest in doing more drawings of. The A! stuff took a hiatus only because I want to draw other things. If all goes well, I might actually finish a fanfiction at some point and be able to share it around (one of the fanfictions, I have too many). If someone knows about Ao3 and it's system, I wouldn't mind hearing about your feedback about it. My commissions are still in production as well, I have a few that I look forward to sharing with everyone once they're done. Just I could never produce art daily, or even weekly in some fashion. I love taking my time with art if I can, it should be therapeutic before it's a major job.

Thanks for understanding. My attention though will be to make sure SubStar people get the art, and I'm still not sure what place I can go to anymore to call my main art hub ... I hope it can be newgrounds but I really don't know.