So the best update I can give you all is that it's summer time and I'm naturally slower at creating art than I was during the winter. I don't really have good AC in my house and it's easier for me to be distracted and focus on keeping cool.

And I need to be up front again about how horrible this year has been. Between dealing with personal health issues, currently it's improving with physical therapy twice a week. Diet's still kinda all over the place and I spend a lot of money making sure I have a good diet that doesn't fuck up my guts.

Death has been very abundant this year and it's not all covid either. I had a cat die at the start of the year, Rusty, which I mentioned, then my aunt passed away in that time. Between her having a small window of improved health and then being completely unable to come back from it and choosing to go on her own. So I'm thankful that we're over with most of that since she's passed, dealing with her affairs. I take care of mom emotionally now for the most part where now I'm making sure I can keep an eye on her and her health (which gives me stress in it's own way).

I was very worried about this other cat of ours going under, which she's still in a gray zone, but she's shown interesting improvement over the last few days, and we can only hope that she'll get back to a stable point. I still expect her to go back to being as sick as she has been, but it's been a money crunching year.

I get very upset about politics as well, but I'm honestly trying to NOT be around the internet and engage with people of that sort as I was. It's just too much. It's very easy for me to say that I can't just focus on art all the time any more. Obviously it's all I can do for an income and I do want to open up commissions again, but I feel bad for Substar not getting the best work that I could give them because I don't have it in me to be horny. I have good people online that I can talk to, but I have no personal connections. I'm still just very distant and afraid to be open with people when I need to.

All that being said, I'll do some commissions this month if people are feeling like asking for one. I'll let you know if I can do your idea or not, and you can always just send me a note about anything even. I will check messages, but yes, I don't always look online as often anymore if I can, but I will get back to you when I can. Thanks for understanding.