Hey everybody, I'm still in recovery but I just got over the worst of a covid head cold ever. Like shit noone should go through this. Please get the vaccine, I have to explain why the vaccine is important and it's not just this blind faith sort of deal. The virus without a vaccine, like the original version of it, used to sit in the lowest parts of your lungs and naturally develop phenomena. You wouldn't know this was happening to you until your lungs were too filled up to cough up or heal naturally.

So when I got to this stage where my nose was completely blocked up with mucus or inflammation, I was like how is this happening, so I looked it up and this is how the virus evolved with the vaccine. Omicrom learned that sitting in the bottom of the lungs and killing it's host does it's self no good, and the vaccine wants you to fight the virus the best way it can which is to create a lot of mucus and sneeze it out. It keeps it's self in your nose to avoid it getting too deep in your lungs and you can avoid having a worse conditions.

This isn't what happens to everyone and for people who managed to get covid and not feel ANYTHING, you guys are the real flukes. I do hope I explained that well enough for people, but between my home recipes (elderberries and yerba santa tea) you keep your immunity high and your lungs clear. [i]Please, for liability reasons, consult a doctor and real medical professionals when you have to deal with covid.[/i] I'm just explaining my experience with it. Three days of fighting and I'm still not complete yet. Mom caught it at an event last week, and we all went through the cycle over the week. Thankfully they all got through it ok. I expect a relapse sometime next week too, cause that's what this virus does.

Outside of that, been watching Twitter fall apart, and yeah I'm still here like I usually am, but I've been seeing the energy there and it's fucking horrible, even if the website isn't DEAD or going away. If it actually breaks down and muskrat deletes it, that'll be a blessing. I have accounts on mastodon that I haven't really committed to yet, but I'm like getting back into Tumblr for the hell of it. You can post porn there without it getting flagged and you can link to off site hosts if you need to share it. I think if anything I'll do my best to post the stuff I need to about Qurie over there because that was 6 years of stuff I didn't really get to expand there. Tumblr allows for long form posting and I've always liked that about the site.

ANYWAY... let me know how you are doing.

How about a little update. Been a busy month.

One of my part time jobs is coming to a close so I want to put this opportunity to remind you guys that my commissions are open and by next year, the prices WILL go up a bit. I do feel like my art is more valuable then it has been previously and I let it stay low for a year so some people could get it during a recession. It really did work out because I don't often take commissions and I'm too slow at drawing to really be there for people. The prices aren't going up because of inflation, it's just what you're supposed to do as you start doing more work.

Maybe I can give some feedback about getting commissions from me. People who have paid me and I've completed their pic, you guys have been awesome. Most of the time, I don't have problems with commissioners. What I do still get, and everyone goes through this, are the ones that sort of BAIT you into a commission.

IE:

Them: Are you open for commissions?

Me: yeah what you want

Often times I'm a day late in checking the notes but sometimes they are WEEKS late in replying to me.

Them: My OC with this Character

Me: Ok sure got details and references?

Them: Yeah like a comic of them doing all these actions and sex poses

Me: ok it's gonna take a while and cost this much.

Then I never hear from them again OR

Them: What will it cost to get just this one pose then

Me: *tells them the new price*

Them: OK

and THEN I never hear from them again. Or even better they'll say "ok that sounds good" but still disappear.

I'm 100% ok with someone saying, they can't afford it because you need food or to pay other bills that month. Take care of yourself 1st. Just I'm keenly aware of the "scammer" type mentality of certainly people dropping into your DMs hoping you do all the work for no money for them. That comes with the territory of saying "commissions open" and it triggers a bot to find you.

I'm not hunting for commissions to do really. I know some people live for the hussel, but I just get distracted by my own ideas too often and equally I play video games a lot. What I should be doing are these things:

Be insanely thankful to the subscribe star people who are patient and tolerant to my random submissions that I give them. I really don't know how to run a service like that for a living without getting bored and it's pretty cool that they're just throwing 5$ at me every month without a problem. I do offer to take off 10$ for any adult theme commission they want to ask from me.

Then be looking for more art jobs in general. My work is printable and graphic design friendly. I love doing logos for people and I don't really know how to network myself around to get those things. I've always tried to do contests and stuff, but I never actually get picked and it's always been a let down. If I ever had a fursona, it would be a skunk, because I'm cute and friendly, but that white stripe and the stink of someone difficult to work with repels them.

ANYWAY

This is the price sheet until the end of the year. I'm about to finish up the last one I owe someone and I would like to get a few more. Take care of yourselves out there first.

OK, so let me make a journal to keep people up to date.

THERE IS A NEW SUBSTAR PIC!

My small obsession with the Soulmates: Gift of Christmas Light cartoon has stirred some inspiration for me. If you haven't seen it, or don't know WHY... 1st off watch it HERE!!

2nd off, it was a cartoon based in lost media: TLDR >> It wasn't really lost but rediscovered. The old man elf in short was the only image that they had to use as reference. But to MY surprise, the villain Angris McBragg hit all my buttons, so I felt like I needed to give the short some much needed Rule 34. There might be one more pic for it when I get there, and I'm hopeful you guys appreciate it. I'm gonna draw it one way or another.

Anyway, the real good news is that the CA heat dome finally went away, and while there will be lots of unseen BS that can come my way, right now, I'm in a good place to get back to drawing again. There was nothing I could share during the month of August, and I was still managing so much other shit at the same time. Still, thanks for being patient with me.

Then of course I got splatoon 3 and I'll be making that my winter game for the most part.

Things coming up:

I put up a few designs on RedBubble to sell and get on things if you're interested. If you feel like they should be on Society6 and TeePublic, I can put them up there as well. I'm gonna try and get them printed on stickers to sell, and I'll host those on my Ko-Fi when I get there. I have two semi secret accounts that I'm working on; one is a neocities.org space for Qurie and then a Co-Host account, which I'm not all ready to get into yet, because they have file size restrictions and junk, whatever. Anyway, that's all you need to know now.

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ok, so something i've been putting off is a BIG OLD SORRY that I've had nearly no art to share this month. It's been too fucking hot and my OCs are making me do things. I've got a million wips, and I can't really be drawing porn in public or working on my PC in my oven of a room. So I do hope you guys are ok with this and I can wait until next month... which I can't promise will improve because global warming means september is now the hottest month of the year around here.

Take it easy and I'm doing the best i can.

So the best update I can give you all is that it's summer time and I'm naturally slower at creating art than I was during the winter. I don't really have good AC in my house and it's easier for me to be distracted and focus on keeping cool.

And I need to be up front again about how horrible this year has been. Between dealing with personal health issues, currently it's improving with physical therapy twice a week. Diet's still kinda all over the place and I spend a lot of money making sure I have a good diet that doesn't fuck up my guts.

Death has been very abundant this year and it's not all covid either. I had a cat die at the start of the year, Rusty, which I mentioned, then my aunt passed away in that time. Between her having a small window of improved health and then being completely unable to come back from it and choosing to go on her own. So I'm thankful that we're over with most of that since she's passed, dealing with her affairs. I take care of mom emotionally now for the most part where now I'm making sure I can keep an eye on her and her health (which gives me stress in it's own way).

I was very worried about this other cat of ours going under, which she's still in a gray zone, but she's shown interesting improvement over the last few days, and we can only hope that she'll get back to a stable point. I still expect her to go back to being as sick as she has been, but it's been a money crunching year.

I get very upset about politics as well, but I'm honestly trying to NOT be around the internet and engage with people of that sort as I was. It's just too much. It's very easy for me to say that I can't just focus on art all the time any more. Obviously it's all I can do for an income and I do want to open up commissions again, but I feel bad for Substar not getting the best work that I could give them because I don't have it in me to be horny. I have good people online that I can talk to, but I have no personal connections. I'm still just very distant and afraid to be open with people when I need to.

All that being said, I'll do some commissions this month if people are feeling like asking for one. I'll let you know if I can do your idea or not, and you can always just send me a note about anything even. I will check messages, but yes, I don't always look online as often anymore if I can, but I will get back to you when I can. Thanks for understanding.

I gotta be real about my life. It's been really difficult to live in the last couple of months. Pain has been getting to me and it might eventually require a doctor's visit at some point soon. I had arm pains, wrist pains, neck pains, and feet pains. I'm working on figuring out my diet and trying not to get stomach pains. All of this is based off of being an artist and how living a life sitting and drawing all of my life. I'm not so far gone that I'm bed ridden but I really have no idea what I can do or what should be done other then keep trying to loose weight and work on my life style.

I've been doing some other jobs that require me to be more present in my town. Nothing serious and all part time but I get sucked into doing those things for extra money and this is all I have for extra income at the moment. And it's not very good. I feel bad for not giving SubscribeStar any real artwork to sub for either at the moment. I draw what I feel like and it can sometimes get to me.

If people have been wanting a commission from me, that would be helpful. I'm gonna open a few slots for that if people have been interested in getting one. I really hope that my body won't fall apart on my while I'm working on these things but if you wanna help me out, I'd be thankful for that.

Thanks for reading anyway.

So Gumroad started doing some shady shit on twitter, and I'm removing my account on there. They have yet to commit to NFTs but the rebranding is so ugly, it was enough for me to give it up. Ko-Fi is where I'll be moving my shop over to for now, and that gallery will stay SFW for the most part. Gumroad was used as a hope to allow for more nsfw materials, but I would possibly use etsy for that instead (if I commit to that). Also I have Subscribe Star to give people nsfw stuff.

It wasn't a great website, it had payout issues and for a solid year it held onto 20$ I had earned because I didn't sell enough items and my account wasn't considered verified.

If you're unaware of my Ko-Fi account, here it is> https://ko-fi.com/anniemae

Thanks for the understanding.

I felt like I had a good year and some of my best stuff was made this year. I encouraged myself to go to the next level and I hope other people were happy with the work I gave them.

Next year will be more of the same that's for sure. Substar Art this month wasn't very numerous but I did just dump a huge WIP image for all the crazy ideas I had drawn up for 2021. >https://subscribestar.adult/posts/497379

I will keep working on what I'm working on and I do want to finish some more stories for next year. Please keep me going and encourage me to do so. I'm thankful for people who are into my work.

It'll be my birthday next week on the 21st, and I'll say to my folks the only thing I want is to stay home and eat a big bowl of ramen soup which I've done for the last three years cause the place in town that makes it, does it really well.

Newgrounds has been a good place to be over all. I'm sorry to say I don't interact much but I don't have to worry about my subject matter upsetting people or getting removed like on FA. I can post images with high quality and not have to worry about it compressing my art too much and as long as I post new pics, there's been some really nice new interactions. Eventually I hope to get more involved, but for now, I'll keep doing what I'm doing.

I'm mostly in my discord posting pics there or ranting on twitter, which I don't recommend following because my takes are dumb. If you want to be apart of my Discord you have to ask for it. It's a small little community and it's otherwise made up of lurkers. I'll always post wips there.

Commissions are always open, but technically they are open for REAL now, and you can ask me for a commission now. Prices won't go up this coming year, so don't feel like you're gonna FOMO.

Just thank you for putting up with me, I always feel like I'm more annoying then entertaining. My art has improved a lot, imo, and while I know getting a job again is gonna slow me down, I do hope that I can keep producing more content and finish the things I set out to accomplish. I have that artist problem of starting a million things and then never finishing them.

As always you can ask me questions, and I'll do my best to answer them.

I think writing an update is in order because it's been a month and I've been deliberately quiet.

It's been the heat, I avoid being around my computer. I don't go out of my way to really talk about what my life is like on a day to day basis because I'm not doing much other then sitting at the computer or trying not to over heat by being in a room where I'd need a laptop, which I'm avoiding that as well. I'm still on my phone mostly and on my Discord but I can't bring it to me to bother people with my complaints and ramblings... or even plans.

Twitter and discord are places I tend to be at these days and I throw my ideas to anons at the chans, which I'm aware how dangerous that can be. There is something cathartic being able to yell at people I'll never meet and just let loose steam without upsetting normal people. I feel like this behavior was something I was doing too often around twitter and journals and getting possessive over dumb fandom bullshit isn't good. BUT I still need places and communities where I can derail into conversations that won't go anywhere and targeted at people who don't matter that much.

My personal life I guess is me talking to a therapist every week and taking CBD/THC edibles to keep me together. The therapist is doing alright I guess but it's sort of hard to really feel like I'm getting through shit. I feel like the CBD is helping more because I have less cravings and I'm less inclined to chronic pains and anxiety. I'm coming to some realization that being stuck at home isn't working and is apart of my issues but I'm still not strong enough to feel like I can leave. There's always something that happens that brings me back into my cave and I'm often made to feel like leaving will be worse somehow... or uncharacteristically me.

ART wise I'm slowly chugging through my Animaniacs ideas, trying to finish them up little bit by little bit. I can feel like people are getting tired of them and so I'm thankful when people are still happy that I'm getting them out there. When the days hit about 3-6pm it's at it's hottest around here and I end up taking a nap. I get lost in online topics too easily and I get distracted with arting. My arting method now hasn't been loose and free form for a WHILE either. I get annoyed at the "perfectionism is evil" language I see from art twitter, and I see the work they produce and I value very little about it. I don't get inspired by other artists anymore. I don't know if people are inspired by art at all and I don't feel like I can give good advice in comparison to people who have jobs in art.

There might be a point where my mentality has shifted into obsession and anger to avoid sadness as a default response. Rather then being sad and lonely all the time, I accept being an enemy to others because I don't want to be forced to change myself to appease others. Not to an aggressive state, and not to the undeserved. I still treat my opinions as useless to most normal people and I think about all sides of the situation before spewing out the horrible thing I'd say if I didn't have a filter.

Guess this journal isn't really an update but I felt like I owed it to people just to give them something after a lot of nothing to say. Galleries like FA and Newgrounds are fine really, I'm just avoiding them because I can't conform to the rules set and I'm afraid of being seen and called out JUST for drawing pervy cartoons. Even if it was my OWN OCs, even for characters like Villy, Berry, Demion, Eddie or Wallop, there's this fear that it can be used against me somehow. "Look at this freak who draws these things, they deserved to be harassed for it." The sadness might've been replaced with anger and envy, but the paranoia hasn't gone away. I just can't see what I need to do for the foreseeable future anymore. Nothing feels safe.

To the people still checking in on SubStar I feel like I need to apologize but then also very thankful. Really if noone commits to it that's fair. If the art that is being submitted isn't good, I can take that feedback, and I'm sorry it upset people. I'm gonna draw what I want to draw, and I do care to give members something unique to look at. Little bits of income mean a lot because I'm not confident I can do anything for long term sometimes.

If you read this all the way, thank you too. Stay safe in these trying times.