Guess I'll do my best to write an update seeing how it's been a while and I get caught up in hating myself and the world around me for the most part.
Still feeling the effects of banning myself from tumblr. I'm not banned from tumblr but I really can't bring myself to start over on that shit hole website again. Though that doesn't mean that I don't feel the effects of detaching myself from it. It's pretty much the same website just I have all these notifications that certain porno pics have been blocked from normal viewing and it's shit I don't want to deal with or delete... I think I can get some way to unblock them, but it's more work then I want to deal with.
So though I am completely aware that most of my dead activities is because I'm just not producing a lot of new art. I've never been a daily artist. I can draw and work on something once a day, but I tend to love time to do other things... most of them just sitting and watching shit and wasting time.
So lets go over the Patreon situation... I know those pics are just sitting there not really getting the audience they would have because I cencore them from the public. I'm still gonna stick to my guns and keep those pics as private as I can. I feel that if I can get enough patreon people to support me there, I'd be more willing to post them to the public later...though I know the stuff I make isn't that good sadly. You're never going to get the top quality stuff that other artists put out for 5$ or less. I just need help with income in anyway possible.
The last two commissions I have are big comics which I hope that I can complete in a fashionable time period. I can always do small Ko-Fi commissios but I need to bust out those comics for now.
I will start streaming again... Currently I'll do art and SFW stuff over on Twitch, and then when I get set up for Pictaro, I'll let you know. I ask you guys, [b]what's the best way to let you folks know that I'm streaming? With a journal or a pic? [/b]I'll delete the notifications when I'm done, but if you want a sure fire way to be aware of my streaming, my SFW art twitter will be the place to find out>> https://twitter.com/SmotMae
There will be days that I do Ko-Fi requests there, so just keep that in mind. As for the Pictaro NSFW streams, you'll see it pop-up at some point, just currently Twitch and SFW stuff is what I'll do.
My life personally... still shitty. Job is like a dieing corpse and the only good thing is that my boss doesn't give a shit that I draw most of the time. I still hate conservative trump supporters and they could do me a favor and shut up about how millienals ruin shit. I'm still fat and dieing and I don't have much of a drive to do better for myself because I have high standards when it comes to friends, and I'm too self loathing to let people close to me because I feel like they're gonna betray my trust anyway...
Other then that it's another day being me...I hope you're all ok.